So.....

The past week has been pretty slow, nothing exciting happened. No friends to see, nothing to do. Bored. Lameness. The upcoming show on Saturday I can not play because I won't be home on time and the sound permit we got only goes till ten. I would really like to see my friend who is in town this week but I'm not sure if I will be able to. I really need to buy a digital camera =[

Other than all that talent scouts from labels and people from the paper have been contacting me and this brought about the question, "since when did I have talent?" I'm still not sure about the answer to that question but I do know this. I write better music when I am depressed. And I will say my wrists hate my writing process and I'm sure anyone who knows what I'm talking about hates it too but I feel as though its the best thing I can do to write and I know I'm going to get a lecture from Caryn after she reads this blog and she sees me or she might even call me after this blog and I want to let her know before hand, I'm sorry for this conversation we are about to have. Lately I have been struggling more than ever with depression and my faith and what not. I think I tend to get this way around christmas time. I think it might be  due to the lack of family when I was young or something or maybe its due to my own negligence twards the family that I have. But on a more somber note my Mom has started to say 'I love you' again for some reason. Oh well, hope you are having a great week and keeping happy and please pray for me because I feel like I need it (sorry if that seems selfish)

This one is for Caryn

Who knew Mcain was an iguana =]

I only did this because I know it would make you smack me =D

I'd kill to fall asleep

Another sleepless night due to writing lyrics and sketching up (or attempting to) a flyer for a show that I'm playing next Saturday. But I suck at drawing branches so I'm going to ask someone today at church if they can do a sketch of some so I can use it and do something over it. Oh well. Have a great day, I get to see someone who I miss today so I will hopefully have a great day.

BEST PICTURES EVER!!!!

So as you probably know I don't sleep well at night so I tend to stay up and do artistic things. And lately I have been getting into photography and I decided to go out and take pictures. On my way down main st. my eye was caught by a car in front of a bar. It was an older sports car with its hood torn (it was a convertable) and the bumper that first caught my eye had the paint chipping off of it and I thought it was so beautiful so I sit down on the curb to take a picture and as I zoomed in and focused I saw that there was a sticker above it and I thought it made the best picture that I could have taken all night. It read "#uck art" (not with the '#' but I think you get it) It was so satrical and I loved it. I sat there for about 20 minutes looking at the car and taking photographs. I will be sure to put up the pictures once I get them developed.

Old poems

I found a bunch of old poems that I wrote when I was little, lets say I was in about 4th grade

"Opposites"

What's the opposite of me?

Someone who likes to flee,

Someone who wears a bag

Or someone who's a hag.

What's the opposite of school?

It's doing something cool,

It's doing something to not be bored,

Its like riding my skateboard.

"I went to..."

I went to a store to buy a lime.

I made a mistake and committed a crime.

I went to the yard to not make a mistake.

I made a mistake and cooked a stake.

I went to Peru to go somewhere far.

I made a mistake and watched 'Dude, Where's My Car'.

"Cats"

Fur, fat, lion, beasts.

Cats hunt and have a feast.

"Iraq"

Bombs, armies, guns, dead.

When we find Saddam we'll cut off his head.

"Video games" (this one reminds me of Sam and Alex)

Video games, oh video games.

I love thee so.

You are my pride, my glory.

You are like a part of me.

We are inseparable.

You make me glow.

My parent's don't like you, but what do they know?

"Ten Little Kittens"

Ten little kittens went to take what's mine.

One touched a mouse trap and there were nine.

Nine little kittens went to find a mate.

One was successful and then there were eight.

Eight little kittens went to 7-11.

One stayed in the slurpee machine and then there were seven.

Seven little kittens got some ticks.

One got attacked and then there were six

Six little kittens tried to stay alive.

One chased its tail and then there were five.

Five little kittens made a smore.

One went into the fire and then there were four.

Four little kittens climbed a tree.

One fell off and then there were three.

Three little kittens sniffed my shoe.

One fell in and then there were two.

Two little kittens looked for a nun.

One fell asleep and then there was one.

One little kitten smelled my gun.

It pulled the trigger and now there's none.

(Here is a video for you to think of the ten little kittens)

Starting to like film

Two pictures that I am happy with. And just when I was going to give up hope of getting better. I think over time and learning I can do much much better because frankly, these kind of are a bit sucky to me but oh well. Not my place for contribution I guess

Another failure

I have to be dreaming

So for the past week I have felt like I've been in some weird dream. I saw someone get hit by a cap from a compressed air cannon and I saw him bleed out quite a bit. One hug will make my stomach sink for the whole day. Everyone seems to be telling me that I can get into college every day. And now this!!!!

So I have been a little bit off on my music lately but I am still writing it and loving it. But earlier today I get on my music page on myspace and I have a new message from a music company called "Hitt Music Group" and they tell me that they want to use some of my music for an independent movie! Not only that but they want to represent me and promote me once I get my music together in an EP. They will send it out to labels and all of that! I think this has to be a dream but if its not then I know I have truly been blessed with guidance to where I should go in my life. I love God. 

Love Canvas

First attempt with canvas and its my favourite thing I have done yet! Tell me what you think I should call it and tell me what you think it means. 

Love the cold

I am stressing out about college, as usual but I still have a small amount of hope and thats alot more than usual about anything. Other than that I am just a little depressed about my family situation or lack there of.  I'm also working on alot of music lately and I just got a book from Caryn about the ACT and I've made it my goal to read it for 30 minutes every time I'm in my room so I can get a good score so I can get into college. I am making that my goal for the next year.

New favourite painting

Hope you like it

Halloween Dissasters

Wow. So pretty much my halloween was filled with blood an half naked women. 

So first off, I was asked to do sound for my friend's halloween thing. He does this whole pirates skit with compressed air cannons and sword fights and all that jazz. And well, we were testing everything before it got dark and well. A cap from one of the cannons blew off. The air was too high and it hit someone in the leg and split it open 2 inches and was 1 inch deep. Blood was everywhere and it splattered and yeah. That was a disaster but then we decided to do the skit anyways with no cannons. And it started to rain on all the rented equipment so we had no sound and to top it off one of the main actors started to get stage fright so we didn't even do the acting. 

So after about 2 hours of improv between captain Jack and I. I went home and Kimmy threw a party and it was filled with half naked girls so I just felt really awkward so I left with my acoustic and played guitar in the rain which lead me to play a few songs in a bar. But when I got home I painted a new picture and its byfar my favourite. I will have to put it up soon.

So overall, my halloween was kind of bad. But I just am happy from something that happened the day before. And I just think it great that something so small as a smile can make me happy for so long.