Lets make it snow!

So I was thinking last night how great it would be if it would snow so I had the idea to collect people with the same outlook as me for that and we can pray for snow together! But now that I think about it this can be so much more than just wishing for weather. This can be something to help people have hope I think. Not just hope for snow but hope for a better life! I'm still tossing around this idea so get back to me about that and tell me what you think of it. 

Razia's Shadow

Okay, the most amazing album in my opinion is going to be released this coming Tuesday and its amazing so go get it! Or if you don't have it I can send you a copy via e-mail

Other than that I am starting to become a little more confident about my college essay. So when I get in (only saying get because I know Caryn will bug me if I say "if i get in") I will be insanely happy! So I hope all of you are having a fun time with what ever and yeah. Keep reading!

The story of the tree untold

Okay, I don't know why but I felt like writing a story of some kind so here you go! 

Just as life on earth was created by one being, the sorrow and despair was set on the world by a single thought of timothy, the meek of heart, one night as he stared at the crescent moon.

Whilst he was pondering why each star was in its place The moon itself was pondering who this was who was staring at him from a distance for he too was lonesome in the vastness of time and space.

But as Timothy was looking at the moon, it seemed to be retreating into the dark and it was due to this he noticed a cliff over looking a tree which was shrouded in the shadows which were not shadows of blocked light, rather the darkness of the mind but he could not see this tree for he knew not of the darkness of the mind and could not penetrate the veil.

This was the tree where all the sadness of the world would soon gather after their bodies have fallen to the inevitable fate of death. And it was this tree that would shroud the minds of all those who mourn and all those who are troubled for it was the Tree of Infinite Sadness.

As the Crescent Moon began to focus upon Timothy who was venturing toward the cliff, he noticed this tree of darkness and despair. For the Moon was already troubled by the thought of loneliness amongst the stars, when he gazed at the Tree it put him into a deep depression to where it was too much for him and he fell asleep.

As Timothy reached the edge of the cliff, he noticed the Moon's sad, sleeping face and it made him think about himself in the eyes of something so grand as the Moon. Was it he who put the Moon in this sleep of sadness of which he feared the moon would never awake?

This saddened him and as he looked down at his feet he thought he had seem a ghost of a man with gouged eyes. As he tossed this thought around in his head he had noticed the Tree in the dark for he now knew sadness and ventured down the steep slope to reach the Tree.

As he slipped and stumbled down the slope, he fell upon a rock which was radiant beyond that of the Moon in pitch black and it shone brighter even more than the light which radiated from the Sun and as he stared, it blinded him.

Soon he could see nothing but white. A white so pure that it burnt his already sunken eyes into nothing more than a hole in his head. But this did not detour him from his venture to the Tree for with out his eyes he could see the truth of the dark for it was nothing.

But when he reached the Tree he was blocked by a force. As he heard a voice say unto him, "Thou hast found thy way to mine trunk even after thou hath been blinded by light."

And Timothy answered this statement to the best of his knowledge. "Without the light I wouldn't know the dark. With out the dark there wouldn't be anything. But nothing is something an that something manifests itself as an emotion which I have found to except anything else in this area.

Have I been saved from the darkness? Have I been sent to the light? For I dwell in this new found dark. I cannot go back to the light now for I know of the pain of the dark. Is it possible to return after something so dark has lead you to something you seek?"

As the force pondered this Timothy slowly started to see the light. And though blurry at first, he could see the force blocking him was the departed spirit of the Tree. He then was lifted up by the dark and thrust down into the soil. And his last glimpse was that of the Tree he sought.

He feared what was to come but he embraced the sweet separation of soul and body. The soul departed to go to the Tree and the body fell to the roots of it. He was one with the Tree and he had never felt more sadness in his life for he was now the ruler of sadness. He was the only one who would sacrifice his soul to the Tree. So it took him for the Tree needed not a body who had suffered but a spirit who had been drawn to the sadness.

The Moon then awoke for he had received a sign of something grand that was to come in the world in ages to come. A man who would save all the world from the sadness, pain and depression of both physical and spiritual manifestation. The Moon would endure for he knew all would be well. He would see the world fall. He would make the seas rise and fall. He would be gazed at with wonderment for ages till this man would come and this gave him hope. And he felt his purpose was for those who would ignore this man to brighten their darkest nights.

Decision that I think is worth it

Okay, For halloween I want to be a rock star. Pretty much I'm going for this

So I'm going to fast till the day comes. 

Other than that life's been looking up.  I actually think I may get into college for once. Other than that, nothing is really new. Okay. Have fun!

Yay for spray paint

This is the first thing I've done with spray paint in like....... oh say, seven years. Here you go.

A leap back into action

So I have finally decided to try to get back into art because I keep having theses ideas in my head that I want to draw but I'm so far out of practice that I can't so I'm trying to get back into it. And here is my first attempt back into art, a really quick monochromatic that I did while at this art thing yesterday.

Other than that I have been enjoying conference ALOT! Its great and it makes me really happy and that is a good thing because I'm usually not that happy. But today after the second session was through I wanted to try my hand at some spray paint shading and masking. I go out to the back and open our REALLY old trailer with all of these paints in it and the door has like 4 locks on it and is kind of heavy so it is a chore to even get into it. So I get out about 10 different colour spray paints. Then I have to go to the store to hopefully buy some wood for a canvas, acrylic paints and a few brushes. I was about half way there when I realize I forgot my wallet so I turn around and go home. And when I left I didn't really want to put the paints away because I just didn't want to open the door again and when I got back, all the paints were gone! I hate the people down the ally. I am pretty sure they stole them because I know they are the people who are always tagging out trailer. Oh well, I will just have to buy some more paints and pray that they won't tag our trailer again and if they do I'm pretty sure I'm going to call the cops.

I hope you enjoyed the little quick painting and I may do some more later on. Please give me feedback.

Stars in the void of space

Well, now I'm starting to apply for Byu-Id and to be honest, I'm getting kind of doubtful that I will get accepted and if Caryn reads this I'm probably going to get a talking to but oh well. But on the bright side it some how makes me feel like I've done something good in my life because I have to think about all my activities and talents and since someone is helping me apply, I have someone to tell me what they think is a talent. 

I also went to the doctors for my stomach and insomnia and I got meds for both. So far the stomach medication is working but as for the organic stuff she had me try, its not the same story. But also I had a huge disappointment once I stepped on the scale and when I told the doctor how I felt it was confirmed that I have an eating disorder but the worse part is that I have no desire to do anything about it. So looks like I'm in for heart failure and malnutrition. WOOT!

So tonight I was riding my bike around town as usual and I was pulled over by a police officer and he asked me the usual things. 

"Have you been drinking?" No, I'm Mormon. I don't do anything like that. 

"What about that V.I.P. bracelet?" It's from the Switchfoot concert last weekend.

Then he asked me something that kind of shocked me.

"Are you homeless?"

I don't know why that took me by surprise but it did. I personally don't think I look homeless. Oh well. Then he just left and told me to ride with traffic and it was all fine and dandy. When I ride at night I like to go by churches and look at the stars and think. And here are some things that I thought of while looking at the stars.

"The brightest stars are not the most amazing ones. The ones that you have to search for will be the ones that take your breath away."

"Light from lampposts seem more natural when there are about ten in front of you and you can truly see that each one has a different shade to it."

"Stars seem to last longer than you do, so if I do get married I want to buy her a star for both of us so if one of us dies before the other we can look up and remember that we will last forever."